Monday, December 31, 2007

Revisited


A highway tries to contain a culture, a lifestyle defined by the two major cities it contains. I chose to leave it in 1985 to build a new life. Twenty two years later I return. Outside the confines of this circumnavigated harness, the harsh West Texas landscape opens my eyes to a different kind of life. Oil derricks, cattle ranches, windmills and cotton fields are the scenery for hundreds of miles along the way. When I arrived at the place that I once dreaded and, by grace, escaped from... it was gone. Beautiful new upscale apartments now populate the the area where I once died. The street no longer exists, and the I can only imagine that remnants of the building I stayed in might be buried beneath the soil.

Monday, December 10, 2007

What's the meaning of this?


Outside and inside, forces vying to control me. The bottom line and the divine and the struggle for meaning in-between. The choices that are before me are not clearly right or wrong. Only a higher principle can add value to the choice, and the battle that will ensue. Look to the right, the left and behind... I am surrounded. Compromises have left my body weak. A mental lassitude has begun to set in.

Look up and find a higher principle.
Dig deep in the manual of life, and follow the instructions.
I will be hated, but I am loved.